It takes more strength and focus than you can imagine to remain optimistic when you feel like crap every single day for years.
That’s my reality and as I started today it was getting to me a bit. It happens from time to time, it ebbs and flows, it’s also temporary so I know it won’t last which makes it easier to sit with.
I spoke with my good friend Victoria Helle this morning. She’s brilliant and an exceptional human that I recommend you check out.
I share this to remind you that I’m not always positive. I experience all of life and want to know all of myself, even the hard stuff.
Because the lessons hidden beneath the deep work are so profound it’s worth every tear shed along the way.
What talking with Victoria helped me remember is how I too can fall into the comparison trap as I see others living “busy” lives and being active in a way I wish I could be.
Here was the epiphany. Just because they looked happy being busy in all those photos doesn’t mean I’d be happy living that way. I find greater fulfillment in having deeper experiences. Deep conversations, feeling deeply connected to people. These experiences don’t typically happen in the context of more, more, busy, busy.
I realized that my speed and bandwidth is quite different than what the “status quo” encourages and I lost sight of that.
It’s a real blessing to have good friends to offer a little perspective and a friendly ear right when you need it.