My life is more than my body

My life has to be about so much more than what my body can do.

That’s what I’m thinking as I lie awake. A storm is rolling in as I’m waiting for the marijuana to kick in and easy the pain so I can go to sleep.

I’ve fought back against the physical decline of my health for years. I wanted my story to be a comeback.

I’m realizing that is unlikely.

I’ve tried dozens of things over the years. Everything from copper socks, supplements, lifestyle changes, etc.

With some of those options I felt small, short lived improvement.

What I have yet to discover, is the acceptance that my body isn’t getting better. But I’m getting there.

That doesn’t mean I’m giving up on it. I’m just means I’m changing my relationship with it.

I’ve been a relentless drill sergeant in my own head. On myself for not finding a way to continue doing all the things I once could.

I’m going to reflect instead on the idea that the physically able and active chapter of my life is wrapping up.

What’s next is no doubt deeply spiritual and a practice of profound self compassion.

My head and my heart have always been my strongest muscles any way.

Best of all I can keep working with all the Moms I live to serve.

Can you be a little mentally ill?

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There’s no such thing as a stupid question

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You can be sick and happy

Listen to this post … I work with many chronically ill teens.I make clear to them they can feel sick and happy.I have yet to experience anything that keeps you aware of the interplay of life’s opposites like chronic illness does.Working to find that sweet spot between pain and comfort, exhausted and rested.It’s often hard

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Thank goodness for second chances

You’ll have your share of naysayers when you’re neurodivergent. When I first enrolled in the Social Work Program, I had a professor who didn’t like me. She went out of her way to try and get me to drop out of the program. It was the early 1990’s and about a decade before I’d learn

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When Facebook wants you to friend a childhood bully

Facebook just recommend I friend someone who literally used to torment me when we were kids. We have FB friends in common it seems. I felt anger at first as I looked at his face. I tried to see evidence of that kid I resented so much. I couldn’t see him. I didn’t know the

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Self-care is about more than getting enough rest

Listen to this post … Self-care isn’t simply about taking care of the parts of you that take care of everyone else. It’s about so much more.  It’s about taking care of the “self”, who you are, what fills you up and makes you feel most alive.  I focus on the self-care that strengthens the

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