Working through the goo really sucks

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One of the hardest and most heartbreaking experiences in life is when you realize you can no longer live up to the pressure of being who everyone thinks you are.

You try to be who they want you to be or who you think they want you to be.

When the paradigm of who you thought you were collapses it can be soul crushing.

There are countless stories of people who seemed to have it all only to kill themselves. I suspect many of them were going through this and feared speaking up because a wave of disappointment from those close to them could follow.

I feel like I’m going through this now.

I’m choosing to stay engaged even though it’s terrifying.

Many of you have messaged me with sagely insight and kindness for which I’m profoundly grateful.

It got me thinking about the opportunity in this. I thought of the butterfly.

A caterpillar turns into a goo inside the cocoon as part of its transformation into a butterfly.

The caterpillar is destroyed before it can become a butterfly.

I feel like the goo right now. Knowing I may be able to emerge a butterfly is encouraging.

The goo phase sure does suck though.

Can you be a little mentally ill?

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There’s no such thing as a stupid question

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You can be sick and happy

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Thank goodness for second chances

You’ll have your share of naysayers when you’re neurodivergent. When I first enrolled in the Social Work Program, I had a professor who didn’t like me. She went out of her way to try and get me to drop out of the program. It was the early 1990’s and about a decade before I’d learn

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When Facebook wants you to friend a childhood bully

Facebook just recommend I friend someone who literally used to torment me when we were kids. We have FB friends in common it seems. I felt anger at first as I looked at his face. I tried to see evidence of that kid I resented so much. I couldn’t see him. I didn’t know the

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Self-care is about more than getting enough rest

Listen to this post … Self-care isn’t simply about taking care of the parts of you that take care of everyone else. It’s about so much more.  It’s about taking care of the “self”, who you are, what fills you up and makes you feel most alive.  I focus on the self-care that strengthens the

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