I’ve been feeling crippling anxiety over the past few weeks and I couldn’t quite get to the bottom of it.
It was such a departure from my typical silver lining, be here now self.
Last night I decided to allow myself to see what I was hiding from. I told the anxiety things will be okay if I know.
The truth is, as I’ve been working diligently with a few people on two exciting new projects.
Things I haven’t done before. That are requiring me to be more trusting, to give up control and allow myself to be seen on a larger scale.
Well that led to a whopping case of imposter syndrome.
Once I was able to name it the anxiety fell away because it was seen.
Emotion that is seen is shown the way out.
I feel much more calm, clear and centered today.
As someone with neurodiversity, stepping into new levels of growth or responsibility isn’t like getting that promotion at work.
You get the news, you celebrate, you start the new job.
For ND’s some big changes can feel like you’re being shoved through the birth canal again.
My introverted side has resisted opportunities like this for years. Not anymore.
Too many people are suffering to keep playing small.